I was reading on the danish website called http://www.netdoktor.dk about depression and such. When I stumbled upon a article named "Social phobia". Then I thought about, when I was home alone and had to called to the pizzaria.
I know it's weird, but actually felt like dying just to type in a number and call to get somethin to eat. I had to wait an hour, before I felt secure enough.
But when I called.. My heart started beating like crazy and I was sweating uncontrolable. I was even dizzy, so when I had to say my order I mumbled and stumbled in the sentences.
Since I was little, I've been like that. Scared of talking with others and such. When I went to kindergarden, I never talked with anyone else than the "teachers", because the children frightened me. I felt awkward in the start, but I learned to "grow" out of it. Untill 0 grade, where it happened all over again.
I think it's funny how you just can be so scared of talking to other people, and it actually feels like you're dying.
Well.. I just wanted to share my weirdo thing here. ^w^
I know it's weird, but actually felt like dying just to type in a number and call to get somethin to eat. I had to wait an hour, before I felt secure enough.
But when I called.. My heart started beating like crazy and I was sweating uncontrolable. I was even dizzy, so when I had to say my order I mumbled and stumbled in the sentences.
Since I was little, I've been like that. Scared of talking with others and such. When I went to kindergarden, I never talked with anyone else than the "teachers", because the children frightened me. I felt awkward in the start, but I learned to "grow" out of it. Untill 0 grade, where it happened all over again.
I think it's funny how you just can be so scared of talking to other people, and it actually feels like you're dying.
Well.. I just wanted to share my weirdo thing here. ^w^
I've felt the exact same way. Especially in times when I've been bullied into the belief that I wasn't worth anything. It made me feel so miserable.
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